Think of things in your life that demand focus.
How would you describe your ability to focus?
For me, hitting a baseball at a professional level with 25,000 screaming fans tops my list.
This skill lay dormant for decades until PTSD erupted.
When therapy after therapy had little impact, a hybrid therapy, Acceptance and Commitment using meditation entered my life.
Now that external focus I had built, the ability to hit a round object with a round bat in milliseconds, needed to be turned inward.
All my friends laughed, a Type a driver, an anxious, hyped up jock was going to sit quiet and meditate.
Yes, it was awkward for a while, then my focus got stronger, thoughts faded and life changed.
Our ability to focus when our trauma thoughts and emotions visit us is key to surviving.
I could not let go, release my fears and abuse without the ability to focus and stay present.
It is the core of integrating trauma, healing for me.
It is the safe haven I can visit anytime, anywhere.
It seems mundane and powerless.
I have found the opposite.
When I can focus, nature comes alive, I see beauty and perfection and opportunity.
We know all to well how to feel abuse, anxiety, fear and panic.
How do you handle your intrusive thoughts and emotions?